[identity profile] brotherlaurence.livejournal.com
1Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, returned from the Jordan and was led by the Spirit in the desert, 2where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry.

3The devil said to him, "If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread."

4Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone.'"

5The devil led him up to a high place and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world. 6And he said to him, "I will give you all their authority and splendor, for it has been given to me, and I can give it to anyone I want to. 7So if you worship me, it will all be yours."

8Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Worship the Lord your God and serve him only.'"

9The devil led him to Jerusalem and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. "If you are the Son of God," he said, "throw yourself down from here. 10For it is written:
" 'He will command his angels concerning you
to guard you carefully;
11they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.'"


12Jesus answered, "It says: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.'"

13When the devil had finished all this tempting, he left him until an opportune time. (Luke 4:1-13 NIV)



There is a good amount of people here. The room does not overflow, but every seat is filled. I do not know that the topic of my sermon has converted anyone, but I have hope that it will at least give some second thoughts about dealing with the Thing in the Tower and the others who walk among us.

I finish with a prayer that I lead us all in, giving thanks and asking for protection and leadership. I also pray for the Reaves family, and the Marks family as well. When I am done and I lift my head, I give everyone a smile.

"Thank you all again for coming. You are more than welcome to stay and partake in a meal with us." I motion to the table that Cain and Kaeli helped me set up. Then I step from the pulpit and move into the crowd, shaking hands and giving smiles to those who reach out to me in congratulations or something. But this is not about me. I hope that they realize that. The Wilsons are here, I notice and give them a smile. They begin to make a beeline for me and I brace myself, hoping I can find someone else to talk to before Amanda is thrust upon me again.


[OPEN.]
[identity profile] brotherlaurence.livejournal.com
1Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, returned from the Jordan and was led by the Spirit in the desert, 2where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry.

3The devil said to him, "If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread."

4Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone.'"

5The devil led him up to a high place and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world. 6And he said to him, "I will give you all their authority and splendor, for it has been given to me, and I can give it to anyone I want to. 7So if you worship me, it will all be yours."

8Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Worship the Lord your God and serve him only.'"

9The devil led him to Jerusalem and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. "If you are the Son of God," he said, "throw yourself down from here. 10For it is written:
" 'He will command his angels concerning you
to guard you carefully;
11they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.'"


12Jesus answered, "It says: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.'"

13When the devil had finished all this tempting, he left him until an opportune time. (Luke 4:1-13 NIV)



There is a good amount of people here. The room does not overflow, but every seat is filled. I do not know that the topic of my sermon has converted anyone, but I have hope that it will at least give some second thoughts about dealing with the Thing in the Tower and the others who walk among us.

I finish with a prayer that I lead us all in, giving thanks and asking for protection and leadership. I also pray for the Reaves family, and the Marks family as well. When I am done and I lift my head, I give everyone a smile.

"Thank you all again for coming. You are more than welcome to stay and partake in a meal with us." I motion to the table that Cain and Kaeli helped me set up. Then I step from the pulpit and move into the crowd, shaking hands and giving smiles to those who reach out to me in congratulations or something. But this is not about me. I hope that they realize that. The Wilsons are here, I notice and give them a smile. They begin to make a beeline for me and I brace myself, hoping I can find someone else to talk to before Amanda is thrust upon me again.


[OPEN.]
[identity profile] ella-kessler.livejournal.com
Midday, Sunday October 4, Day 126
The Abbey


I'm back in town two days in a row. It's startin' ta feel like I belong here. Like this town's my community, jus' as the farm's my home. I decided to stay after the service at Nanshe's church an' ate lunch with a bunch a the folks that stayed, too. Saw Julia a few times but she seemed busy with whatever she was doin' an' she was on the far side of the room. Maybe some other time.

It's cool an' rainin' again today but I need ta step outside for some air. Too many people in too small a space for me ta handle. Guess that's the farm girl in me.

I tug the brim a my hat down a li'l, pull my jacket tigher 'round me, an' tuck myself inta the alcove 'gainst the wall by the door. Outta the way so if'n someone does come out here, they won't crush me or trip over me. I'll also be able ta see 'em, in case it happens ta be someone I know. All the people I've been talkin' ta lately make it more obvious how lonesome the farm gets with jus' Daddy an' Chris there.

My fingers reach up an' brush my lips an' my brow creases a li'l. I've been doin' that a lot since Liam kissed me yesterday. I been wishin' I knew what ta do 'bout that whole thing...

[OPEN to Julia]

[CLOSED]
[identity profile] ella-kessler.livejournal.com
Midday, Sunday October 4, Day 126
The Abbey


I'm back in town two days in a row. It's startin' ta feel like I belong here. Like this town's my community, jus' as the farm's my home. I decided to stay after the service at Nanshe's church an' ate lunch with a bunch a the folks that stayed, too. Saw Julia a few times but she seemed busy with whatever she was doin' an' she was on the far side of the room. Maybe some other time.

It's cool an' rainin' again today but I need ta step outside for some air. Too many people in too small a space for me ta handle. Guess that's the farm girl in me.

I tug the brim a my hat down a li'l, pull my jacket tigher 'round me, an' tuck myself inta the alcove 'gainst the wall by the door. Outta the way so if'n someone does come out here, they won't crush me or trip over me. I'll also be able ta see 'em, in case it happens ta be someone I know. All the people I've been talkin' ta lately make it more obvious how lonesome the farm gets with jus' Daddy an' Chris there.

My fingers reach up an' brush my lips an' my brow creases a li'l. I've been doin' that a lot since Liam kissed me yesterday. I been wishin' I knew what ta do 'bout that whole thing...

[OPEN to Julia]

[CLOSED]
[identity profile] julia-marshal.livejournal.com

Late Afternoon of Sunday September 20th
The Sheriff's Office

I’ve never felt that my footing on the path was ever secure. But I’m assured that my Mother, the goddess and not the one that follows me around the Abbey making sure that I am doing as I am told, understands the effort of trying.

 However, lately, merely “trying” isn’t good enough.

 I’ve redoubled my efforts to please her and those around me.

 The hours can’t be counted, that were spent in the gardens, singing low tunes with my sisters as we harvested the produce there for canning, or the days spent in the silence of prayer. I’ve heard the whispers about me. My exploits no matter how small do get around in this place.

It seemed best not to fuel the fires.

 I pray to our good and benevolent goddess for wisdom and of course the safety of the people of Excolo, but also for guidance. It’s a selfish little wish, that when pressed I would never confess to even those closest to me. Am I doing the right thing by Nanshe? I want to do good…but how are my efforts in doing so going awry?

 Resolved in my decisions to do better, I’ve shut myself away for the time being. However Sundays do come quickly at times, and being joined by the town’s folk has made me miss some of the adventure to be found outside of the gates.

 A blush creeps up my cheeks as I pack a small basket with a few things and cover it with a tea towel. I have a some time before a few sisters and I will be heading out to outlying farms to perform a personal service to those that can’t make it to town.

 So, I quickly head down Main Street with my basket slung over my arm and a small smile on my face.

 Though it fades somewhat as I peak my head into the sheriff’s office and its dark, except for the light coming in through the windows. I haven't been here before, the thrill of something new sounds itself against my beating heart.

 I push open the door enough to step inside and look around a little.

 “Hello?” My voice seems so small in the dark, but I continue. “Liam?”

[open to Liam]
 

[identity profile] julia-marshal.livejournal.com

Late Afternoon of Sunday September 20th
The Sheriff's Office

I’ve never felt that my footing on the path was ever secure. But I’m assured that my Mother, the goddess and not the one that follows me around the Abbey making sure that I am doing as I am told, understands the effort of trying.

 However, lately, merely “trying” isn’t good enough.

 I’ve redoubled my efforts to please her and those around me.

 The hours can’t be counted, that were spent in the gardens, singing low tunes with my sisters as we harvested the produce there for canning, or the days spent in the silence of prayer. I’ve heard the whispers about me. My exploits no matter how small do get around in this place.

It seemed best not to fuel the fires.

 I pray to our good and benevolent goddess for wisdom and of course the safety of the people of Excolo, but also for guidance. It’s a selfish little wish, that when pressed I would never confess to even those closest to me. Am I doing the right thing by Nanshe? I want to do good…but how are my efforts in doing so going awry?

 Resolved in my decisions to do better, I’ve shut myself away for the time being. However Sundays do come quickly at times, and being joined by the town’s folk has made me miss some of the adventure to be found outside of the gates.

 A blush creeps up my cheeks as I pack a small basket with a few things and cover it with a tea towel. I have a some time before a few sisters and I will be heading out to outlying farms to perform a personal service to those that can’t make it to town.

 So, I quickly head down Main Street with my basket slung over my arm and a small smile on my face.

 Though it fades somewhat as I peak my head into the sheriff’s office and its dark, except for the light coming in through the windows. I haven't been here before, the thrill of something new sounds itself against my beating heart.

 I push open the door enough to step inside and look around a little.

 “Hello?” My voice seems so small in the dark, but I continue. “Liam?”

[open to Liam]
 

[identity profile] simon-klavec.livejournal.com
"One of the very nicest things about life is the way we must regularly stop whatever it is we are doing and devote our attention to eating."


Day 112, Sunday September 20th
Early Afternoon
Just east of the bridge, north of the road


Been a long time coming together, this. Still not sure why I said I'd do it. Gesture to Hope and Faith, at first. Then a way to keep peace between the town and the cigani. But where do I fall there? Not cigani for sure. For all the confidences some have shared with me, I'm not part of their family. Towsfolk? Well. Friends there, though thinking of it, I'm friendly with as many from the Carnival. Working in Excolo, but I could still leave. Part of me wants to keep moving. But I remember what the twins said, how I might help. Know from my dreams how bad it could be.

So. Neither townsfolk nor travelling-folk. Pause my thoughts to take a drink. I've got the wood piled up right, sod cut and set aside. Spits are set up, just not hammered in. Need to set up the big iron grill under them, so the fat dripping off the spits keeps the meat on the grill warm. Got a lot of meat in the handcart. Cask of fresh water, a few treats. Hope Verdandi from the Tavern comes by, but we'll be fine if she doesn't. Finish my break and go back to work.

Doesn't take long before I'm done. Glad of the coolness in the air. I put a jacket on, at least for now. Don't want to get a chill. Fire'll warm it up some. Got my leather apron for when the cooking starts. Hope people show up. Hope certain people don't show up. Ah, well. Any trouble and I'll appeal to their better natures. Though makes me grin.

[Open to people mentioned in OOC]
[identity profile] simon-klavec.livejournal.com
"One of the very nicest things about life is the way we must regularly stop whatever it is we are doing and devote our attention to eating."


Day 112, Sunday September 20th
Early Afternoon
Just east of the bridge, north of the road


Been a long time coming together, this. Still not sure why I said I'd do it. Gesture to Hope and Faith, at first. Then a way to keep peace between the town and the cigani. But where do I fall there? Not cigani for sure. For all the confidences some have shared with me, I'm not part of their family. Towsfolk? Well. Friends there, though thinking of it, I'm friendly with as many from the Carnival. Working in Excolo, but I could still leave. Part of me wants to keep moving. But I remember what the twins said, how I might help. Know from my dreams how bad it could be.

So. Neither townsfolk nor travelling-folk. Pause my thoughts to take a drink. I've got the wood piled up right, sod cut and set aside. Spits are set up, just not hammered in. Need to set up the big iron grill under them, so the fat dripping off the spits keeps the meat on the grill warm. Got a lot of meat in the handcart. Cask of fresh water, a few treats. Hope Verdandi from the Tavern comes by, but we'll be fine if she doesn't. Finish my break and go back to work.

Doesn't take long before I'm done. Glad of the coolness in the air. I put a jacket on, at least for now. Don't want to get a chill. Fire'll warm it up some. Got my leather apron for when the cooking starts. Hope people show up. Hope certain people don't show up. Ah, well. Any trouble and I'll appeal to their better natures. Though makes me grin.

[Open to people mentioned in OOC]
[identity profile] brotherlaurence.livejournal.com
Night of Monday, September Fourteenth

I got dressed, a sinking feeling in my gut once all the tears've gone, and drank water. Only an idiot would do what I'm doing dehydrated.

Only an idiot would do it at all.

I sit at the bar and nod to the bartender, who brings me a whiskey neat when I ask and I pay him for it plus a good tip, trying my best not to look miserable or too much like a man whose not had a drink in ten years. I look at the liquid in my glass a moment and don't think of the brothel merely feet away.


[OPEN.]
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[identity profile] brotherlaurence.livejournal.com
Night of Monday, September Fourteenth

I got dressed, a sinking feeling in my gut once all the tears've gone, and drank water. Only an idiot would do what I'm doing dehydrated.

Only an idiot would do it at all.

I sit at the bar and nod to the bartender, who brings me a whiskey neat when I ask and I pay him for it plus a good tip, trying my best not to look miserable or too much like a man whose not had a drink in ten years. I look at the liquid in my glass a moment and don't think of the brothel merely feet away.


[OPEN.]
[CLOSED.]
[identity profile] ravenous-liam.livejournal.com
near the river on Sunday, September 13th
afternoon


Boss's been on edge a bit, I think. Seems like it, anyway. Don't blame her, really. Duelin's a big thing. Never seen a duel. Wonder if maybe she'll let me be there to see it. And deal with that jackass if he manages to win. I shake my head and get up out of my chair, sick of staring at these papers like they'll suddenly say out loud what's printed on them so I can understand it.

I step out onto the porch and pause to light a cigarette before settin' out on Main. My hand reaches to my belt, automatically checking for my cuffs and my gun. They're there--always are.

When I reach the river, I pause and take in a deep breath of air before putting the cigarette back and inhaling the fumes. Still no clue what to do about the gods. No idea what to do about all of it.


[OPEN to Julia.]
[CLOSED.]
[identity profile] ravenous-liam.livejournal.com
near the river on Sunday, September 13th
afternoon


Boss's been on edge a bit, I think. Seems like it, anyway. Don't blame her, really. Duelin's a big thing. Never seen a duel. Wonder if maybe she'll let me be there to see it. And deal with that jackass if he manages to win. I shake my head and get up out of my chair, sick of staring at these papers like they'll suddenly say out loud what's printed on them so I can understand it.

I step out onto the porch and pause to light a cigarette before settin' out on Main. My hand reaches to my belt, automatically checking for my cuffs and my gun. They're there--always are.

When I reach the river, I pause and take in a deep breath of air before putting the cigarette back and inhaling the fumes. Still no clue what to do about the gods. No idea what to do about all of it.


[OPEN to Julia.]
[CLOSED.]
[identity profile] nansekam.livejournal.com
Friday, September 11, night

I am on duty at the gate tonight. Such nights are usually pretty bloody dull. I'm not much good at just sitting about. I can do the meditating thing, but then I tend to go into a bit of a trance, and that's no good if you're on duty. But just watching the gate is boring. We don't get many night time visitors, but the rule is that someone needs to be on the gate during the night to keep an eye on things.

One of the sisters went out a few hours ago to tend to a sick parishioner, but she came back an hour ago. Since then it's been quiet as a mouse's fart. I'd be bored, except I'm worried instead, because that dratted Julia has not come back. She went out early in the day and hasn't returned! Where is she, by Nanshe? I'm starting to feel really anxious. Not sure how much longer I should give it before I get a couple of the brothers out of bed and go out looking for her. The roads are dangerous now.

I'm thinking of getting up and raising the alarm when I see a familiar mop of blonde hair bobbing up the path. I step out of the gatehouse onto the path.

"WHERE THE BLOODY FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN, YOUNG LADY?"

[closed]
[identity profile] nansekam.livejournal.com
Friday, September 11, night

I am on duty at the gate tonight. Such nights are usually pretty bloody dull. I'm not much good at just sitting about. I can do the meditating thing, but then I tend to go into a bit of a trance, and that's no good if you're on duty. But just watching the gate is boring. We don't get many night time visitors, but the rule is that someone needs to be on the gate during the night to keep an eye on things.

One of the sisters went out a few hours ago to tend to a sick parishioner, but she came back an hour ago. Since then it's been quiet as a mouse's fart. I'd be bored, except I'm worried instead, because that dratted Julia has not come back. She went out early in the day and hasn't returned! Where is she, by Nanshe? I'm starting to feel really anxious. Not sure how much longer I should give it before I get a couple of the brothers out of bed and go out looking for her. The roads are dangerous now.

I'm thinking of getting up and raising the alarm when I see a familiar mop of blonde hair bobbing up the path. I step out of the gatehouse onto the path.

"WHERE THE BLOODY FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN, YOUNG LADY?"

[closed]
[identity profile] julia-marshal.livejournal.com

Location: Road leading back into Excolo

Night of Friday, September 11th

 

 

I wonder at the pale shade of my skin in the moonlight.

 

It’s been a long day with promises of it being longer if I don’t hurry back to town. It started out innocent enough, running a few errands, bringing out a basket of goods baked in the Abbey to the home of one of our church going families. They know back at Notre Dame I’m in a tizzy to get out into the world again, so it’s been up to me to run a few places here and there visiting some of the sick in our congregation.

 

The way out there had been simple; a few farm folk in town had offered me a ride out to another home on their way back. I’d taken it gratefully and at face value. My goods delivered I should have started on the trek back, however, like always my chatting with the family seemed to have gotten away with me, and by the time I had turned to leave, the sun was going down.

 

Which leaves me on the road now, no sound around me except for my humming of a song I learned as a child at the Abbey about the goodness of Nanshe and of course the stubborn crickets that seem most intent on waiting out the coming fall with their small songs.

 

My sandaled feet trip along the path, every so often kicking a stone or small clod of dirt in tempo with my humming, a hand swishes a little at my waist directing the melody in my head, causing my robe’s sleeves which I had unbuttoned earlier in the day to the elbow, to thrash around with the movement. Showing the light blue tunic fabric that is underneath, stretched over my arms.

 

When I look out at my hand holding a small basket, the white light from the orb above plays off of it, making it soft cream instead of the crisp honey it is when I work under the sun. When I was younger I was never scared of the dark, for some it was tales their parents told them to keep bad children in line, others the bumps in the night are just that much more frightening…anything could be in the shadows. For me, and all of us at the Abbey it’s a chance to thank our goddess and invite her to commune with us, even as a girl that small bit of hope outweighed any imagined evil.

 

And though my bravery in the face of the unseen is true as ever, Excolo is not the place it was in my youth. Some say the night terrors now are as real as they’ve ever been.

 

I close my eyes for the moment, sure of my feet beneath me to take me back to town. My rush to return is pressed by a rule I dare not to break, which is no one can be out of the Abbey for an overnight without the Abbesses permission, which I most certainly didn’t have.

 

This thought puts a small amount of speed to my walk, as if trying to avoid an irate driver of a buggy when you cross in front of them. But for the most part those thoughts are out of my head and I enjoy my travel back.

 

There isn’t much to observe this way, other than my extreme relief that the farm I’d been visiting was in the opposite direction than the water tower that seemed to have a few people buzzing about around town. There is a vast openness I enjoy and the cool temperatures of an autumn evening. When I finally open my eyes I am only slightly closer to town than I was before, but it isn’t the terrain the blue orbs have fallen open for.

 

It’s a sound.

 

My long hair jumps with the sudden snap of my head, sending blonde waves and the swirling ends of a long blue ribbon that is caught up in it, sailing over my shoulder.

The crickets for the moment are quiet...and so am I.

[CLOSED]

[identity profile] julia-marshal.livejournal.com

Location: Road leading back into Excolo

Night of Friday, September 11th

 

 

I wonder at the pale shade of my skin in the moonlight.

 

It’s been a long day with promises of it being longer if I don’t hurry back to town. It started out innocent enough, running a few errands, bringing out a basket of goods baked in the Abbey to the home of one of our church going families. They know back at Notre Dame I’m in a tizzy to get out into the world again, so it’s been up to me to run a few places here and there visiting some of the sick in our congregation.

 

The way out there had been simple; a few farm folk in town had offered me a ride out to another home on their way back. I’d taken it gratefully and at face value. My goods delivered I should have started on the trek back, however, like always my chatting with the family seemed to have gotten away with me, and by the time I had turned to leave, the sun was going down.

 

Which leaves me on the road now, no sound around me except for my humming of a song I learned as a child at the Abbey about the goodness of Nanshe and of course the stubborn crickets that seem most intent on waiting out the coming fall with their small songs.

 

My sandaled feet trip along the path, every so often kicking a stone or small clod of dirt in tempo with my humming, a hand swishes a little at my waist directing the melody in my head, causing my robe’s sleeves which I had unbuttoned earlier in the day to the elbow, to thrash around with the movement. Showing the light blue tunic fabric that is underneath, stretched over my arms.

 

When I look out at my hand holding a small basket, the white light from the orb above plays off of it, making it soft cream instead of the crisp honey it is when I work under the sun. When I was younger I was never scared of the dark, for some it was tales their parents told them to keep bad children in line, others the bumps in the night are just that much more frightening…anything could be in the shadows. For me, and all of us at the Abbey it’s a chance to thank our goddess and invite her to commune with us, even as a girl that small bit of hope outweighed any imagined evil.

 

And though my bravery in the face of the unseen is true as ever, Excolo is not the place it was in my youth. Some say the night terrors now are as real as they’ve ever been.

 

I close my eyes for the moment, sure of my feet beneath me to take me back to town. My rush to return is pressed by a rule I dare not to break, which is no one can be out of the Abbey for an overnight without the Abbesses permission, which I most certainly didn’t have.

 

This thought puts a small amount of speed to my walk, as if trying to avoid an irate driver of a buggy when you cross in front of them. But for the most part those thoughts are out of my head and I enjoy my travel back.

 

There isn’t much to observe this way, other than my extreme relief that the farm I’d been visiting was in the opposite direction than the water tower that seemed to have a few people buzzing about around town. There is a vast openness I enjoy and the cool temperatures of an autumn evening. When I finally open my eyes I am only slightly closer to town than I was before, but it isn’t the terrain the blue orbs have fallen open for.

 

It’s a sound.

 

My long hair jumps with the sudden snap of my head, sending blonde waves and the swirling ends of a long blue ribbon that is caught up in it, sailing over my shoulder.

The crickets for the moment are quiet...and so am I.

[CLOSED]

[identity profile] kateohara.livejournal.com
Day 100, Tuesday September 8th, lunchtime

I look out of the window and smile at how bright the sunshine is. What a beautiful day! I am so glad the school has a nice day for this event. I go back to the oven and take out the raisin bread I have made, giving it time to cool. I am so pleased Amanda volunteered to work today. I would not have asked - it seemed unfair to ask her to work an extra day simply so I can go to a picnic - but she very sweetly said last week "I know you like the town events, Kate, and besides it's Ma's birthday soon and I could use a little extra money to buy her a good present", and so it was agreed.

I pack up the picnic basket whilst the bread cools. The bread is for sale at the snack stall, but the picnic is for me - and anyone who would like to join me. I am hoping Laurence will take time off from the smithy to come along. I am sure he will. He's always very indulgent of the things I want to do. I smile thinking about him. We seem to have settled into a nice pattern of spending an evening or two every week together. Part of me knows that really, if this is to become a real relationship, we're going to have to address some of the issues that came up on that rainy afternoon. Is that why I have not tried to spend more time with him? Perhaps. Or maybe I am just so used to being alone that even this seems like a lot of time to spend with someone. I push the thoughts away. Oh, life would be easier, it seems, if people weren't worried about sex... I know that intimacy of that sort is meant to be a beautiful thing between married people, and of course we'd have no babies if no one bothered with it, but it seems to do such horrible things to people, too. Look at poor Kora, and poor Karina, and so many other women who have had bad things happen because of sex and jealousy and cruelty...

Enough. I wrap the still-warm bread up in a piece of muslin and pop it on the top of the basket. Then I head towards the park. One of the school children - Katie, I think she's called - smiles at me with a front-tooth-missing smile and takes my money at the gate and puts it in a pail decorated with paper flowers. It's sweet.

Inside the park some stalls have been set up, and I can hear fiddles being tuned. I wonder if anyone will dance. I feel a sudden, unexpected pang of homesickness. There's so much I am glad to have left behind me, but I remember the weddings and baptisms that were celebrated with picnics and barn dances and the like, and I miss it. Hopefully this afternoon will make up for that.

Bunting flutters in a soft breeze, and I hand over the raisin bread. Then I find myself a nice spot in the sunshine, and opening my basket take out a thin blanket and spread it out on the grass. There's certainly room on it for more people.

[open!]
[identity profile] kateohara.livejournal.com
Day 100, Tuesday September 8th, lunchtime

I look out of the window and smile at how bright the sunshine is. What a beautiful day! I am so glad the school has a nice day for this event. I go back to the oven and take out the raisin bread I have made, giving it time to cool. I am so pleased Amanda volunteered to work today. I would not have asked - it seemed unfair to ask her to work an extra day simply so I can go to a picnic - but she very sweetly said last week "I know you like the town events, Kate, and besides it's Ma's birthday soon and I could use a little extra money to buy her a good present", and so it was agreed.

I pack up the picnic basket whilst the bread cools. The bread is for sale at the snack stall, but the picnic is for me - and anyone who would like to join me. I am hoping Laurence will take time off from the smithy to come along. I am sure he will. He's always very indulgent of the things I want to do. I smile thinking about him. We seem to have settled into a nice pattern of spending an evening or two every week together. Part of me knows that really, if this is to become a real relationship, we're going to have to address some of the issues that came up on that rainy afternoon. Is that why I have not tried to spend more time with him? Perhaps. Or maybe I am just so used to being alone that even this seems like a lot of time to spend with someone. I push the thoughts away. Oh, life would be easier, it seems, if people weren't worried about sex... I know that intimacy of that sort is meant to be a beautiful thing between married people, and of course we'd have no babies if no one bothered with it, but it seems to do such horrible things to people, too. Look at poor Kora, and poor Karina, and so many other women who have had bad things happen because of sex and jealousy and cruelty...

Enough. I wrap the still-warm bread up in a piece of muslin and pop it on the top of the basket. Then I head towards the park. One of the school children - Katie, I think she's called - smiles at me with a front-tooth-missing smile and takes my money at the gate and puts it in a pail decorated with paper flowers. It's sweet.

Inside the park some stalls have been set up, and I can hear fiddles being tuned. I wonder if anyone will dance. I feel a sudden, unexpected pang of homesickness. There's so much I am glad to have left behind me, but I remember the weddings and baptisms that were celebrated with picnics and barn dances and the like, and I miss it. Hopefully this afternoon will make up for that.

Bunting flutters in a soft breeze, and I hand over the raisin bread. Then I find myself a nice spot in the sunshine, and opening my basket take out a thin blanket and spread it out on the grass. There's certainly room on it for more people.

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Sunday, around midday

I've had a lot to think about since Reed visited on Thursday. It was pretty bloody difficult to clear my mind to do the necessary rituals for visions, to be honest - but years of practice paid off in the end. I went into that sleep trance peculiar to lucid dreaming, and I saw... I dunno, exactly. Water. The goddess is really into water at the moment, it seems. In my dream water was putting out fire. There was a great pitcher pouring water onto a big conflagration, but then the pitcher ran dry, and the flames got higher. And then I glimpsed the goddess, hair like dark smoke, and I fell to my knees and tried to ask her questions, but I couldn't speak. She said "they are thirsty, son".

It's at times like this I really miss Oya. She's got the best connection with the goddess, I think. Water is faith, I reckon, based on other dreams I've had. Is the goddess saying we don't have enough faith to stop what's coming? And who is thirsty? Does she mean she wants us to convert more people, or was she saying she wants us to work on feeding our own spirits? Is her abbey thirsty? Oneiromancy is not as precise an art as I'd like - especially since different faiths have different dream symbols, so none of the books in the library have been any fucking use. I do know that fire is associated with that bloody tower, though.

I've tried to put that out of my mind this morning for regular service. Brother Ash lead today - we've been rotating in the Abbess's absence - and it was all very nice. To be honest, I can get a bit bored on Sundays, just because the service is meant to be inclusive, so it doesn't dwell on the deep secrets of the goddess, and the hymns are all in English. But it is nice to see the community together with the town. Reminds me that we're part of something bigger here. And I'm proud of what we've built, town and abbey, religious and lay. We're all of us honoring the goddess today, and when the kids lay flowers on the altar it always makes me smile.

We sing the final hymn of the service, which is a nice enough number that the kids in the congregation seem to enjoy - it's important to get them involved.

Goddess supreme, Mother of Dream,
by thy ivory doors when thou standest,
Who are they then that come down unto men in thy visions that troop, group upon group, down the path of the shadows slanting?
Dream after dream, they flash and they gleam with the flame of the stars still around them;
Shadows at thy side in a darkness ride where the wild fires dance, stars glow and glance and the random meteor glistens;
There are voices that cry to their kin who reply; voices sweet, at the heart they beat and ravish the soul as it listens.


Then the congregation spills out onto the steps, some heading home for lunch, others lingering to chat. As it's the first Sunday of the month, we've got a soup lunch in the refectory that people can come to. My cynical side notes that the congregation is usually bigger on the first Sunday of the month - but hell, if all we have to do is give out a bowl of free soup to get someone to sit and think about the goddess for an hour, fair enough.

I'm standing on the steps, greeting old friends and newcomers, wishing those who are heading off a good Sunday and reminding others that there's a light lunch in the refectory if they want it. It's a grey day but not raining, which is good - people always linger longer to chat if the weather is dry.

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Sunday, around midday

I've had a lot to think about since Reed visited on Thursday. It was pretty bloody difficult to clear my mind to do the necessary rituals for visions, to be honest - but years of practice paid off in the end. I went into that sleep trance peculiar to lucid dreaming, and I saw... I dunno, exactly. Water. The goddess is really into water at the moment, it seems. In my dream water was putting out fire. There was a great pitcher pouring water onto a big conflagration, but then the pitcher ran dry, and the flames got higher. And then I glimpsed the goddess, hair like dark smoke, and I fell to my knees and tried to ask her questions, but I couldn't speak. She said "they are thirsty, son".

It's at times like this I really miss Oya. She's got the best connection with the goddess, I think. Water is faith, I reckon, based on other dreams I've had. Is the goddess saying we don't have enough faith to stop what's coming? And who is thirsty? Does she mean she wants us to convert more people, or was she saying she wants us to work on feeding our own spirits? Is her abbey thirsty? Oneiromancy is not as precise an art as I'd like - especially since different faiths have different dream symbols, so none of the books in the library have been any fucking use. I do know that fire is associated with that bloody tower, though.

I've tried to put that out of my mind this morning for regular service. Brother Ash lead today - we've been rotating in the Abbess's absence - and it was all very nice. To be honest, I can get a bit bored on Sundays, just because the service is meant to be inclusive, so it doesn't dwell on the deep secrets of the goddess, and the hymns are all in English. But it is nice to see the community together with the town. Reminds me that we're part of something bigger here. And I'm proud of what we've built, town and abbey, religious and lay. We're all of us honoring the goddess today, and when the kids lay flowers on the altar it always makes me smile.

We sing the final hymn of the service, which is a nice enough number that the kids in the congregation seem to enjoy - it's important to get them involved.

Goddess supreme, Mother of Dream,
by thy ivory doors when thou standest,
Who are they then that come down unto men in thy visions that troop, group upon group, down the path of the shadows slanting?
Dream after dream, they flash and they gleam with the flame of the stars still around them;
Shadows at thy side in a darkness ride where the wild fires dance, stars glow and glance and the random meteor glistens;
There are voices that cry to their kin who reply; voices sweet, at the heart they beat and ravish the soul as it listens.


Then the congregation spills out onto the steps, some heading home for lunch, others lingering to chat. As it's the first Sunday of the month, we've got a soup lunch in the refectory that people can come to. My cynical side notes that the congregation is usually bigger on the first Sunday of the month - but hell, if all we have to do is give out a bowl of free soup to get someone to sit and think about the goddess for an hour, fair enough.

I'm standing on the steps, greeting old friends and newcomers, wishing those who are heading off a good Sunday and reminding others that there's a light lunch in the refectory if they want it. It's a grey day but not raining, which is good - people always linger longer to chat if the weather is dry.

[open to anyone who has been to service!]

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