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Thursday, June 14
Valmont and Hermia's Garden
Well. This is going to be awkward.
But a bit of awkwardness is well worth the trouble, and worth the greater good if we can turn Mab aside from the path that she is on. If we can win her back to the path that I know she wants to follow, but has gone astray. This person who delights in violence and bloodshed - that is not my friend. Not the person who took me in when I first stumbled into this town; not the person performed my wedding.
If there is any chance that I can possibly call Mab back to herself, I must do it.
And, in truth, I should have done it long ago.
So we are setting out tea and cakes and lemonade in the garden, and sending Luc up for his nap a bit early so that he will be out of the way.
(Well, more precisely, we are sending him up to his room. Whether he will sleep is another question entirely. More likely, we will come up to find a very awake littleboy amid a maze of pillows and blocks and a long elaborate story about what it is. But at least he will not be here.)
I waddle about the table (dear gods, I did not think I could get any larger, but apparently, I can!), setting napkins and silverware in their proper places while Valmont fetches the food. And the wheels of my mind spin, and I wait.
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Valmont and Hermia's Garden
Well. This is going to be awkward.
But a bit of awkwardness is well worth the trouble, and worth the greater good if we can turn Mab aside from the path that she is on. If we can win her back to the path that I know she wants to follow, but has gone astray. This person who delights in violence and bloodshed - that is not my friend. Not the person who took me in when I first stumbled into this town; not the person performed my wedding.
If there is any chance that I can possibly call Mab back to herself, I must do it.
And, in truth, I should have done it long ago.
So we are setting out tea and cakes and lemonade in the garden, and sending Luc up for his nap a bit early so that he will be out of the way.
(Well, more precisely, we are sending him up to his room. Whether he will sleep is another question entirely. More likely, we will come up to find a very awake littleboy amid a maze of pillows and blocks and a long elaborate story about what it is. But at least he will not be here.)
I waddle about the table (dear gods, I did not think I could get any larger, but apparently, I can!), setting napkins and silverware in their proper places while Valmont fetches the food. And the wheels of my mind spin, and I wait.
[Open to Valmont and Mab]
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Date: 2013-08-30 12:25 am (UTC)"Do you think these will lull her into a false sense of security?" I say to Hermia, raising my eyebrows gently as I set the tray down.
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Date: 2013-08-30 12:34 am (UTC)"But the palmiers look marvelous," I add, offering Valmont a slightly more hopeful smile. "And they smell just as good. Would it disrupt your arrangement if I had one now?"
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Date: 2013-08-30 01:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-08-30 02:05 am (UTC)"Then I may have two palmiers," I toss back with a quick smile.
I ease myself down into the chair and slip my shoes off ever so slightly before turning eagerly to the pastry. It is lovely to have a husband who is such a good cook! And even if the new doctor scoffs at the idea of eating for two, I am quite happy to have a reason to eat more of Valmont's cooking!
"I hope Mab's willing to listen, at least."
"So do I," I say quietly, feeling my smile fade away. "I think if she will listen to anyone, she will listen to us. But…even that is uncertain, these days. If she does not…I am not certain what is left for us to do."
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Date: 2013-08-30 04:11 pm (UTC)Even if it's what I've done for two weeks straight.
Jack's talking to me this week though, so that's something. I know he's disappointed in me, and I can't blame him. But he still stays, and he still takes his job seriously. But he always knows when I've had a bad string of days and it almost makes it worse when he's nice about it.
Push that to the back of my mind and take a final drag of my cigarette before I make my way around the building. Take a second before I come into their view to center myself before I step past Hermia's wards and into the calm of the garden.
"Is that Valmont's cooking I smell? Perhaps even baking?" My smile is mostly genuine.
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Date: 2013-08-30 09:07 pm (UTC)I reach down and squeeze Hermia's hand sympathetically, but there's no more time for discussion, as Mab is here. She's clean and tidy, which makes a difference from some of the ways I've seen her in town, but she looks tired behind her smile.
"I made some pastries," I say, smiling, "and there's cake from Edmund's - I don't try to compete with his creations." I usher her into a chair. "How are things? It's been a while since we've seen you."
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Date: 2013-08-31 01:16 am (UTC)Or, I enjoyed spending time with Mab as she was. There is less and less of the Mab as she was to spend time with these days.
She'll forgive me if I don't get up to greet her, but I offer a warm smile and wave from my chair as Valmont gets Mab settled.
"Is that Valmont's cooking I smell? Perhaps even baking?"
"I made some pastries," I say, smiling, "and there's cake from Edmund's - I don't try to compete with his creations."
"No, but you make your own variety of wonderful pastries," I agree with a proud grin.
"How are things? It's been a while since we've seen you."
"It must be busy at the sheriff's office," I echo. And then, more carefully, I venture, "You look tired."
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Date: 2013-09-02 12:04 am (UTC)Push the thought away and school my features into something nicer, happier. Snag on of the pastries Valmont has made, "Oh the usual. Late night bar fights, patrolling. The usual," pause for a second, "Well, a little more than usual. And the more folks are riled up, the more often I'm out all night."
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Date: 2013-09-03 11:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-09-03 04:34 pm (UTC)One brick at a time, I suppose, so slowly that we hardly noticed them being built until suddenly we could not see over them.
Her voice is strained, her smile even more so, and her words are vague as she replies to me and Valmont.
"I'm sure that you and Jack have it all in hand. But being out all night so often…it must wear on you?" I offer gently.
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Date: 2013-09-03 08:48 pm (UTC)Take a sip of my tea and glance around the whole garden for the first time as I realize that I haven't seen Luc yet, "So where's your little hellion, eh? Isn't he usually running loose around this time of day?"
I smile at that. I like Luc and his antics. Besides, he's an excellent distraction when Hermia starts looking concerned, which she's starting to.
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Date: 2013-09-04 02:10 am (UTC)I take another sip of tea, and press in again, still quiet, but a bit stronger, as I look up to meet Mab's eyes, "Mab, truly, are you all right?"
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Date: 2013-09-04 04:21 pm (UTC)She laughs, and so do I, and it feels good. I haven't found myself having moments like this lately.
"Mab, truly, are you all right?"
Feel my smile freeze on my face, and almost crack. Manage to keep it fixed as I lean back in my chair and relax the muscles that her question have tensed. I'm totally prepared to wave aside her concerns. She's pregnant, and I want her to be happy, not worried about me. Isn't this protecting them?
"Not really. No," I shift in my chair, "I suppose things haven't been quite right in a while."
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Date: 2013-09-04 04:57 pm (UTC)I glance over at Valmont, exchanging a look of relief before I say, "I thought that might be the case." I lean forward a little - and then sideways, for there is only so far forward that I can lean at the moment! - and reach out towards Mab to take her hand. "What's wrong?" I ask simply, softly.
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Date: 2013-09-05 11:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-09-09 06:36 pm (UTC)Describing it is strange, and I don't know it's hard despite our friendship, or because of it, "Before I came to Excolo I knew who I was and what my duties were. I knew what to do and when to do it, and no problem ever stopped me. And then I came here and everything just shifted on me. Suddenly I had more than just my duty," Drop my eyes and stare into my teacup, "I had friends and I didn't know how to care about them. Or take care of them. And I had problems that couldn't be easily solved. Crimes without evidence. Things I knew but couldn't prove. I couldn't arrest gods or demons and I certainly couldn't tell folk that was why I wasn't getting this done. Knowing who I was just wasn't enough anymore."
Look back up at her, "And then, all at once, I had a realization. Why did I have to prove anything? You remember when we had that terrible riot a couple years ago. The one that happened because we were giving the cannibal due- process? No one here wanted justice or reasons. They wanted safe and quiet and the bad guy stopped. I learned from that."
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Date: 2013-09-10 11:16 am (UTC)"The town may not," I say, very quietly, "but I think you do care about justice, Mab. How safe can any of us really be if we can't rely on receiving justice if we need it?" I sip my tea. "I've never," I confess, "been very interested in the due process of the law. I didn't grow up with it, and I've not seen it work in many places. Excolo was one of the first places I've been where the system tried to really work for the people, not just whoever was in charge - the king or the mayor or the wealthy citizens. And a lot of that is due to you and Jack."
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Date: 2013-09-10 01:32 pm (UTC)"I never saw much of it either, before coming here," I agree, with a brief wry glance over at Valmont. Justice in Athens was a few rich men speaking to another few rich men, never to or for anyone else. "You showed us a different way. And if more people see that justice and reasons matter, then they'll learn. Some of them, at least," I have to admit, with a sour twist of my mouth. "Some never will - they won't want to listen, or look outside themselves. But some will. Those are the ones who wanted better elections, and who have been coming to you to help them find justice. Real justice, not just an easy answer. And…I think you still care about it, too," I venture, looking back up at Mab. "It wouldn't pain you so much if you didn't."
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Date: 2013-09-16 08:32 pm (UTC)I try to smile again, "I can't promise I'll go right back to being straight and narrow again. But I can try it. Everyone, the Town...me. We all deserve better than some of what I've been putting out there."
I finally pull my hand back for Hermia so I can sip my now-cooling tea, "Maybe it's a bit off, but I hadn't figured that anyone really noticed. You two are the first who've really questioned me on it. Guess I'm better at putting people off than I thought."
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Date: 2013-09-17 01:26 pm (UTC)"You do deserve better." I offer Mab a small smile, and squeeze her hand. "I can't imagine that it's a comfortable feeling, coming home every night - or morning - with the memories of what you've been doing. Trying is all that I'd ask. A feeling like the one you have…it can't be changed all at once."
I lean back as Mab pulls away - but it isn't a sharp, closed-off sort of pulling away, just the ordinary leaning back so that we can both get on with our tea. Relief is seeping back into me, taking the place of the tension - tension that has been there for much longer than I have realized, and that I only feel in its departure.
"We're not the first who have noticed," I admit quietly. "Only the first who have spoken up to you. Unless Jack has said something?" I think he must have. If I know him at all, he would have shown his unhappiness in some way, even if he did not come out and talk to Mab as we have done. "And…forgive me, please, for not having spoken up sooner. You deserve better than our silence, too. Our friendship does."
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Date: 2013-09-30 06:02 am (UTC)I hear a small sound, and tilt my head. Yes, that's Luc calling out. I excuse myself and go up to see if he needs something, or if he just wants to have his latest game admired.