estdeus_innobis | "I’m going to show you how to kill a god. [...] The trick is not to fear him."

[Early evening, Monday, March 29th, day 302]
[The woods]

This is when you realize, Nanshe said t'me in m'dream, watchin' m'dream-self sittin' an' holdin' onna Genny's paint tubes. Annat wuz true...I jes' di'n't understand what't wuz't I wuz gonna be re'lizin'. I sat't m'worktable after Tez came t'me, I sat wit' somma Genny's paints fer days on end, turnin'em over'n m'hands. Thinkin'. An'I re'lized, 'n th'end, 'at'ere wuzn't no other way.

Came back out'ere, t'th'clearin' where I put th'charm on m'knife. Silence 'n me raised a lotta power'ere, an' sommovit's still hangin' over th'damp grass. No fire t'night. Don't want no light but th'moon. Jes' me, th'moon, an' th'blade.

Night's dark, annit's cold, wit' th'wind pickin' up hard. I said'd do anythin' t'bring Genny back, anni will....I jes' di'n't think't wuz gonna hafta be'is.

Run th'ball'a m'thumb down th'edge'a m'knifeblade, bringin' blood. I hear thunder'n th'distance. God. M'stomach's'n knots. M'throat hurts. But'll do't. Goddamn th'bastard, 'e knows'm th'only one't would.

~~[OPEN to TEZ]~~
[CLOSED]