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The body is but a pair of pincers set over a bellows and a stew pan and the whole fixed upon stilts.
- Samuel Butler

You're sick of hangin' around and you'd like to travel;
Get tired of travelin' and you want to settle down.
I guess they can't revoke your soul for tryin',
Get out of the door and light out and look all around.

Sometimes the light's all shinin' on me;
Other times I can barely see.
Lately it occurs to me
What a long, strange trip it's been.
- 'Truckin'', The Grateful Dead


January 6th, early evening

I walk along the southern road to Excolo, the grey halflight of a January day fading into a sullen sort of blackness. There is little charm in this weather, road hard packed with ice. As I get closer to the town I find the snow has been sprinkled with salt and grit, but to no great effect. I flip up the collar of my coat as if I need to shield myself against the cold.

This is a new body. I felt the desire for it, something with no history worked into its flesh. And I am not interested tonight in a body that encourages sexual desire; I have had enough of those for now. This body is a fine work of art, but it is not beautiful, skin slouching into wrinkles except where it is stretched tight across high flat cheekbones, hands knotted, greying hair. The body of a man of perhaps sixty, faint traces of age spots on his hands but as yet no tremor to them. A man who is sure of his step. A face that is lived in but gives little away, and eyes like bright sparks in a skull. Full small lips to take the edge off that steady cold gaze, to make it show the possibiity of kindness. Yes, it will serve.

I walk into town and find the tavern, hefting my bag as if it has some weight. When I set it down I sigh softly, as if relieved, and I roll my neck and click it.

"Hail friend," I say to the barman easily, "a toddy do you have to ease my bruised bones on this cold night?"

When the rum comes it steams, and I hold it in my mouth and let my cheeks splotch a grateful pale pink on the act of swallowing.

[OPEN]

Date: 2010-04-20 06:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glass-beddau.livejournal.com
"Mistress Beddau sounds as if she has no time for such pretty bubbles as these," and oh, hell, I meant no offense, but at least he's smiling still as he explains it to Lannie.

"What do you dream of, mistresses? Perhaps I have a bottle for it."

"Pardon if I spoke harsh," I say, sipping my drink. "I meant no sharpness." Shake my head and push it aside. "Still and all," I say more brightly. "Quiet nights, summer rain," and I'm musing aloud, and no particular deep a desire for that, but they're something to name and pleasant enough. "Lannie, my turn t'stand a round, help yourself if you're of a mind to...?" I dream of living t'see another harvest, as well, but that's more'n I care t'share with a stranger. A name for the murdered man, another for whoever's driving knives and mauling corpses, and both of those sharp and certain things that stand alone, that're nothing to do with me--

"Escaping notice," I say thoughtful, turning back to Uri. "Folk speak plainer when they've no care for your being there." Toss Lannie a quick dry grin. "And may be I could catch those're after coming by unseen, then, if chance favoured the time particular of such a dream."

Date: 2010-04-20 09:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melania-lowell.livejournal.com
"Some dreams, some wishes, all of them short and sweet as a bright day in winter."

"Whose dreams?" I ask, staring at the pretty colored glass. Like I'm actually gonna see whats inside. Then shake my head, and tear my eyes away. Smiling and shrugging at my dumb question. It just reminded me of when I was little and asked where the bad dreams that the dream catcher caught went. This guy's gonna make a killing at the market. "What do you dream of, mistresses? Perhaps I have a bottle for it."

I dream of running, but not from anyone or anything, running just to run and feel the wind in my fur instead of the air around me feeling like a cage. I'd like to not lose it and wolf out and be a danger to my friends. Not telling him that though. Especially not in the present company. I can't think of anything but luckily Glass answers, saving me from having to answer first. Smelling that food is making my stomach growl and being hungry while Gaueko chows down is more annoying than it should be.

"Folk speak plainer when they've no care for your being there."

Why's she grinning at me? I wonder if Iago said something to her or if I said something I shouldn't. "Yeah, except you hear stuff you wish you didn't," I mumble under my breath. "More drinks on the way." That's a wish I can grant. I grin at Thomas who already has a round waiting by the time I come around the bar.

Date: 2010-04-21 06:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gaueko-erebus.livejournal.com
I listen to Sugaar's pitch while I lick my bowl clean and gnaw on the crusty bread. He always was one hell of a salesman. He offers Glass and the wolf girl dreams and illusions and mysteries...but doesn't name his price. He never does. I grin and crunch my bread crust.

Glass seems to have gone contemplative. "Still and all. Quiet nights, summer rain," she muses, though I don't think she's saying all she could. "Escaping notice," is how she finally concludes, "Folk speak plainer when they've no care for your being there. And may be I could catch those're after coming by unseen, then, if chance favoured the time particular of such a dream."

Picked the wrong lover in that case, Glass my girl. I snort. I seem to recall that pretty boy turning her out dressed as a peacock. Ah, well.

The wolf girl asks whose dreams they are, which is more clever than I'd have given her credit for. But she seems to forget the moment the words pass her lips. "Yeah, except you hear stuff you wish you didn't," she mutters to Glass, and says that more drinks are on the way. Well, she might not be bright, but she does her job well.

I lick gravy from my whiskers and sprawl on the floor with the bone pressed between my forepaws. One ear is turned to the conversation as I crunch it between my jaws, licking marrow from the splinters. I'm surprised to find that I'm having fun. Sugaar and I should do this more often.

Date: 2010-04-24 12:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glass-beddau.livejournal.com
Lannie answers my mention of folk speaking clearer with "Yeah, except you hear stuff you wish you didn't," and

"No such thing," I say dry, looking at the second glass and turning it slow in the black of the Shuck's night. "May hear of things'd leave you happier if they weren't so, but better to know." Always, always better to know.

"Invisible I cannot render you," Uri says, and've no particular interest in that either, only... only being dim. Takes up a pair of them in his hands and "Colour of leaf or stone, snow or sky," and that's fond memory, there, more than passing soft or soundless, the soft myriad of colours folk call simple as green or brown or grey. "Together, yes, I think it could be done, mistress. But was that idle talk, or a call to business?"

"Not idle," I say thoughtful, looking to the first and wondering what colour the glass of it is in sunlight or electric glow rather than in this soup of bruised black. "And think perhaps I can keep myself quiet enough, but the matter of colours... that's of interest." Recall something he said to Lannie, then. "Do you take price only in coin, or in dreams, or...?"

Date: 2010-04-24 08:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melania-lowell.livejournal.com
"From whomsoever has traded them, my friend," Uri says, humoring my question instead of looking at my like I'm a dumbass. It's nice of him so I smile back. What Glass says about hearing things makes me smile more. I should've expected it from her and I guess she's right.

If I were a wolf right now, my ears would be pricked forward as I hand out the drinks and listen to them talk. Is she really gonna buy something? And will it work? Glass is clever, maybe she's just humoring the nice old man. He obviously needs the money, especially if the hound god is mooching off him. I look down at the old dog, not quite a glare. I wouldn't wanna offend Uri by giving 'his dog' a dirty look. I see the position of that ear. You're listening to this whole thing aren't you, you big jerk.

"And come, friend, there must be wishes you'd be having." I look t Uri with a smile. "Hmm?" My head cocks slightly. I'm trying to recall a dream that I'll mention out loud. "Do you take price only in coin, or in dreams, or...?" Oh. Good question, Glass.

Where was he when we were trying to get Iago's memory back? I would've wished for that. Or to have Ri not be so sad about John. He's a jerk anyway, so not her loss. Oh...wait... "What about stuff to get even with someone?" I ask. He may be an ass, and I don't want him dead, but really uncomfortable would work. Fleas or mange, I think. I picture him walking around town, losing hair or fur because of a crazy itch. Even though I know this guy's probably full of shit, the thought makes my lips pull back from my teeth a little. Should've just left her alone.
Edited Date: 2010-04-24 09:01 pm (UTC)

Date: 2010-04-26 12:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glass-beddau.livejournal.com
"You think not that ignorance is bliss," he says, and "I too always prefer knowledge, even when it is bitter." Think on that a moment, and keep from glancing down to the Shuck. Wonder how much Uri knows of him.

"I barter," and may have lost some knack of that with time in town, but there's a comfort to remembering prices set out in herbs or time or jewelry or food or shelter. "Dreams if you have them and they are of interest, or supplies of other sorts. Your husband is a barkeep, you say? I could take drink to keep the cold from my bones. Or food for my dog," and feel my mouth twist in a dry smile, no joy nor humour to't. "Negotiation, dear mistress, is key."

"Well," I say dry, "there's a butcher in town, but'm not thinking I could see to having your Rollo fed at his behest..." Spit and staunchweed, well enough to wake him at the dark of the night wanting t'know if Iago's dead, but think asking him to feed the Shuck would be a bit overmuch. Smile a touch at the thought. "How long're you thinking t'stay in town? Could well speak for your having drink, but if you're more or less than wintering here, drink alone'd mismatch a quiet day." Lift my glass but don't drink from it. "What happens t'folk who trade you their dreams? Have they memory of a memory, or d'you only take impression, or is it gone entire from their minds?"

"What about stuff to get even with someone?" Lannie says, and I turn to look to her, head tilted slight to one side, and fall quiet. Fair to new in town, and not sure who she's found dislike for...

Feel myself go still and quiet, then, and'm thinking needs must talk t'her once this is done, and afore she's after slipping dreams to anyone. Guessing she's no mind for who's listening.

Date: 2010-04-26 05:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melania-lowell.livejournal.com
"but not all dreams are pleasant, of course."

My smile is small and I nod. I know that as well as anyone. "At least with a dream you wake up," I shrug. Sucks that its short lived though. But it sucks even more to wake up to find out the nightmare was real. Been there done that one.

He barters. That would be good except I don't think I have anything he wants except for food, drink and Glass mentioned those. Not a big deal. "I can pay cash," I offer. He can use that to feed his precious dog if he wants. I don't want to feed him and nothing this guy is offering is gonna change that. I grin at the sorta questioning look Glass gives me. She seriously doesn't think this is for real does she?

Its too bad its not cos I could think of more fun things for myself to ask for. Especially if its only a dream. Nobody has to know and its not hurting anyone, right? "And the person who takes the potion remembers the dream, right?" Kind of a dumb question cos if they didn't, what would be the point? "What about if your dream is about someone you know? Would they be in the dream too?" Would be nice to see Lucien happy again.

Date: 2010-04-27 03:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glass-beddau.livejournal.com
Lays out the weight of dreams, what's taken, and words sifting into shape like sand falling to dry roses, bury husks. "And the other side of it?" I say thoughtful. "What you take, dreamt full and fine weight... there trace of the dreamer settling on the drinker?" Can hear the calm in my voice, steady and smooth as winter horizon.

"And the person who takes the potion remembers the dream, right?" Lannie says intent. "What about if your dream is about someone you know? Would they be in the dream too?"

"Depends on who," I say in soft aside, and the stem of the glass is thin as a child's rib in my fingers. Lannie's speaking more of dreams asleep, play-acts in the mind, gives chance to draw in others. Leave Uri answer the matter and hold myself still and steady. Hardly the idea of speaking with another in dream rather than waking that gives me pause, but the other...

Date: 2010-04-27 04:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melania-lowell.livejournal.com
"Depends on who," Glass says softly. I glance at her, feeling my head tilt. I don't get what she means by 'depends on who'. The way Uri's talking, it'll work on anyone. If it works at all. "And as for dreaming of friends, why that depends on whether what you're wanting is a daydream or a short but sweet reality,"

Sweet reality? Remembering a dream is one thing, and its cool, but actually making it for real? Sometimes a dream is enough. I shrug, "Not really a fantasy, I want to give them something to think on." I've already seen Lucien happy, and I hope he still is, but a lot of shit's gone down too. I could probably help without a dream, but it seems like it might be a safer place? Fleas aren't gonna teach John anything, unless we could make him dream about him getting dumped and having fleas or mange. That idea bring another smile to my face. Wish I could see that dream.

Date: 2010-04-28 02:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gaueko-erebus.livejournal.com
The bone splinters easily between my teeth, and I lap at the rich marrow as the conversation goes on above me. It's somehow deeply amusing that both my Glass and the wolf girl picked me out so easily, but now they're bartering with Sugaar like he's any common merchant. Just picturing the look on their faces if they realized who he was makes my tail wag.

He suggests drink as payment...or food for me (and I sigh again as his hand brushes my head)...and then dreams in trade, of course. And I can see them both thinking of it. The wolf girl in particular. My tail brushes the floor again, and I roll over, the faithful pet asking for a belly rub. This is really just too fucking funny.

Date: 2010-04-28 05:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glass-beddau.livejournal.com
"Good questions you ask, Mistress Beddau. The kind to alarm a salesman, in truth, but I have always appreciated curiosity," and I smile faint. Can serve him well enough on that end, surely. "It's hard to rid a dream entire of its owner, but I do what I can... If it's secondhand it should be clean, you understand?"

"Oh," I say, and distant I know I could hear a shattered absence if I tried, and my voice continues pleasant calm, "I mind that, yes. And I do weigh your honesty in making mention, and thank you for it." Find the smile's slipped and manage it again, and there're no teeth to it either. And think of the bowl of my glass broken and the sharded end stabbing down, driven into the fur of his belly, black blood welling around obsidian like rot from a spade-split shroud. Talk of dreams, that's one's come on particular sharp.

Oh, Shuck, you'd bring even faint aside of that at me, after, after-- - -
I would have your heart torn and bled.


Gift for a friend and revenge and swear I'm not following the matter of what Lannie wants, I ought sort that out a moment, if only to warn her off a target particular for revenge. Uri nods and excuses himself, coin set down and bottles gathered up, and two thin blades of glass set down by way of parting thanks and maybe word to be spread for aught he might be trading... can do worse in town than have a bartender speaking well of your goods, after all. "Come, Rollo. We should be away. Good night to you."

"T'you as well," I say, lifting my glass to him, "and safe travels."

Look to Lannie, then; hardly as if I can tell which dream is which in the black moment. "Take your pick," I say, "I've minded both, it's of a balance to me." Thoughts of a dream stripped clean's mixing in my mind with late spring and rough fabric and scrubbing mending piecing clothes until fingers bled. Never minded the work. If it's secondhand it should be clean.

Date: 2010-04-30 04:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melania-lowell.livejournal.com
Gaueko's looking at Uri, tail wagging like mad, scent happy. It makes me feel a little sick, and all I wanna do is grab the old man and run upstairs just to get him away. I take a sip of my whiskey to hide my glare. You're still a jerk, I don't care how cute you can make....

...He rolls over and exposes his belly to Uri. I try not to laugh and my drink goes down wrong. Now I'm covering my nose and mouth, trying not to choke. Fuck it burns.

"Ah, a gift for a friend, I mark you," I say, nodding. "Yes, it could be done."

Smiling behind my hands, I nod. "'K," I say in a tight rasp and almost laugh again. I'm glad Glass wishes Uri a good night cos I can't get my voice to come out as anything but a rasping whine and all I can do is smile and wave. They're gone by the time I finally catch my breath and I take a deep drink to clear my throat.

"Take your pick, I've minded both, it's of a balance to me."

Swiping one of the little bottles off the table I turn it in my hand. I didn't catch what he said about which is which. This one's warm and green. Stuffing it in my pocket, I pick up the dishes and set them on the bar, turning back to Glass. "I'm sorry, Glass, but your Dad's an ass. Family time for you must've been a bitch when you were a kid," I say and shake my head. I pull the little bottle back out and look at it. "You think he's for real?"

Date: 2010-05-01 04:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glass-beddau.livejournal.com
Rubbing my hand 'cross my eyes as the Shuck leaves, and the night's bleeding out of the room, dim light coming back and all the shades of rot silting out of my glass. Still not minded for the taste of it, and push it aside as Lannie speaks.

"I'm sorry, Glass, but your Dad's an ass. Family time for you must've been a bitch when you were a kid," and I sigh, rubbing my hand 'cross my eyes and looking up t'see her looking at a greened slip of a vial. Catch up the pink one and leave it in a pocket. "You think he's for real?"

"May well enough be," I say absent, "sure it's rather early t'be making claims can't pass if he's after staying 'round a fortnight or so. Any case," I add, lifting my head a little, "my mam was my parent and raised me, and've no father to speak-- wait, what?" Play out her words again and yes, I heard them aright. "Care t'have you speak more on that, Lannie."

Date: 2010-05-01 05:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melania-lowell.livejournal.com
I nod in agreement at what she says about him being for real or not. Too early to tell right now.

"my mam was my parent and raised me, and've no father to speak-- wait, what? "Care t'have you speak more on that, Lannie."

Fuck.

"Uhm... Which part?" I ask, chewing on my lower lip a little bit. "You know Iago and I ran into him at the WhiteChapel, right?" I hope he told her about that and its okay that I know. Or is it the how I know?

Shit, shit, shit.

I'll play dumb and leave it there. Hope I get lucky. Should've asked if he had anything for luck. Taking a big swallow of my drink, I smile and try to shrug it off. I never forget and do or say anything weird.Normal just like everyone else. Yep, we saw him at the WhiteChapel, simple as that.

Yep. I'm so screwed.

Date: 2010-05-01 05:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glass-beddau.livejournal.com
"Uhm... Which part?" and catching some nerve in that, and fair enough that any who knows aught of me'n him can catch it's not a warm subject, but... "You know Iago and I ran into him at the WhiteChapel, right?"

"Heard mention of that, yes, fine," I say, waving it aside and leaning forward a little. "The part where you're after speaking of him t'me now, as one who only just left." Aright, I c'n tell and that's fine, but the shape of him aside shadows and night... that wasn't the gwyllgi, and even if it was, Iago said the Shuck was in the shape of a man when he came at them in the Whitechapel.

Date: 2010-05-01 05:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melania-lowell.livejournal.com
Let out a held breath and relax a little knowing that she doesn't care that I know. I have my own secrets. Don't wanna be spilling anyone elses just cos I can't watch what I .....

The part where you're after speaking of him t'me now, as one who only just left."

Oh fuck me.

Its one thing I like about her though. She's sharp and keeps Iago and that Dorian guy on their toes. I,however, take another big swallow of my drink. Not stalling, its just my throat feels dry. Okay, so I'm stalling. And now my glass is drained. How the fuck am I supposed to explain this?

I start off slow and quiet. "I... uhm... I can ...I am ... I can ..." I can what. I feel like I'm trying to dodge bullets here. Smell him? Not only does that sound gross, but its weird. "It was the dog," I say quickly. "It reminded me that I meant to offer my condolences for what you have to go through." What she said about him, sounds like we agree at least and maybe she'd understand better than some...

"He also smelled the same," I add in a lowered tone. "Didn't you notice it too?" She's got half his blood, wouldn't she at least get some of his powers? Not sure how that whole thing works. At least heightened senses aren't so unique in this place with walking gods. I chew on my lip again, waiting for her reply (http://community.livejournal.com/estdeus_innobis/346368.html).
Edited Date: 2010-05-01 05:00 pm (UTC)

Date: 2010-04-30 03:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gaueko-erebus.livejournal.com
Sugaar sets two bottles on the bar, one the soft green of new glass, the other the colour of raw, torn flesh. Dreams, one for each of them, of flowers and cool water. My tongue lolls from my mouth as I grin. "Come, Rollo. We should be away. Good night to you," he says to the women before standing. I heave myself to my feet with a sigh that speaks of creaking bones, and I follow him out. But not before I see the sharp grin on my Glass' face, and the blood behind her eyes. Maybe someday, my Glass. Maybe. But I doubt it. And then the door is swinging shut behind us.

I wait until we're a full street away, the path shadowy and deserted, before I change, strolling alongside him with my hands in my pockets. "Well, that was fun," I say, grinning. "So busy looking at me that they hardly noticed you. I almost wanted to spill the beans just to see the looks on their faces." Not that I would have.

Date: 2010-04-30 04:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gaueko-erebus.livejournal.com
The skin pales and smooths, the bones shorten and thin, the hair lengthens and darkens. And now walking beside me is the pale, toylike dogsbody that we played with so many months ago. Just the scent of it makes my cock stiffen.

Sugaar tells me it's been a long time, and I nod. "Kaixo aspaldiko," I say in agreement. "But then, you've been busy. Bored with the redhead yet?". I wonder if he's killed her yet. I doubt it. If that was all he'd wanted her for he'd have done it long ago.

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