I watch him carefully when he says he didn’t know about what Glass did, and I think he’s telling the truth. Going to keep thinking about that, though.
He lets me get through everything I have to say about that night, just looking thoughtful and sad. Even comes out and says he won’t argue with me. Which of course makes me feel just wretched, though I still stand by everything I laid out. I watch him eat a minute, which is more than a little awkward, and then he looks up and pins me with his eyes. And that does hurt, him saying outright we can’t be friends. Guess I should have expected it, though. Try to think of something to say that might help. “Shouldn’t hit you when you’re down, I’m sorry. It’s just that the gossip going around’s pinning most of this right on me.” Surely he must have heard some of it, even if he didn’t spread it. “Not saying I was unwilling in what we did, or blind, or that it was all your doing, just… didn’t expect things to go this wrong because of it, for either of us.”
If I thought he’d shake my hand I’d offer it to him, or kneel and touch his shoe if we were standing. As it is… “I need some more coffee, ‘cause your boss kept me up half the night.” And manage sort of a smile. “Can I get you some?”
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Date: 2011-08-03 04:25 am (UTC)He lets me get through everything I have to say about that night, just looking thoughtful and sad. Even comes out and says he won’t argue with me. Which of course makes me feel just wretched, though I still stand by everything I laid out. I watch him eat a minute, which is more than a little awkward, and then he looks up and pins me with his eyes. And that does hurt, him saying outright we can’t be friends. Guess I should have expected it, though. Try to think of something to say that might help. “Shouldn’t hit you when you’re down, I’m sorry. It’s just that the gossip going around’s pinning most of this right on me.” Surely he must have heard some of it, even if he didn’t spread it. “Not saying I was unwilling in what we did, or blind, or that it was all your doing, just… didn’t expect things to go this wrong because of it, for either of us.”
If I thought he’d shake my hand I’d offer it to him, or kneel and touch his shoe if we were standing. As it is… “I need some more coffee, ‘cause your boss kept me up half the night.” And manage sort of a smile. “Can I get you some?”