I want more than anything to put my arms around her and hug her tight, but I know she wouldn’t thank me for that. So I just stay where I am and listen to her. Of course the truth hasn’t been helpful. It isn’t helpful very often, but I owed it to her. It hurts when she says I can’t give her what she wants, because I’m terribly afraid she’s right. I want to be able to, though, and there’s no way to prove to her how much.
She’s not meeting my eyes, not even looking at me straight, but I can tell from the way her lip curls that it was the wrong thing to offer to let her hit me. Still, she asked. “If it would make you feel better, I want you to.” I don’t for a minute think she’ll do it just for me, but maybe it would help her get some of the anger out. And it would help me, that’s true. Do I want it? I guess, but I don’t think she’ll do it in a nice way. “Not a lot I wouldn’t do to make you feel better, sweetheart.” God, I sound broken already, but can’t stand seeing her like this and knowing I caused it.
![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png){kind=small}
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2011-06-19 05:43 am (UTC)She’s not meeting my eyes, not even looking at me straight, but I can tell from the way her lip curls that it was the wrong thing to offer to let her hit me. Still, she asked. “If it would make you feel better, I want you to.” I don’t for a minute think she’ll do it just for me, but maybe it would help her get some of the anger out. And it would help me, that’s true. Do I want it? I guess, but I don’t think she’ll do it in a nice way. “Not a lot I wouldn’t do to make you feel better, sweetheart.” God, I sound broken already, but can’t stand seeing her like this and knowing I caused it.