EXCOLO

He licks his lips like he's nervous but doesn't answer me right away, I mean that I didn’t come to you asking you to take me in out of the goodness of your heart because we’re friends. I’m trying to earn my keep here, sweetheart. I know you don’t need a freeloader. This isn't what I want to hear and I think it shows because then he reaches up to touch his fingers to my cheek, I move my face away from his hand and sit up. I can still feel his body though so I roll off him and retreat to the edge of the bed, Wrap my arms round my knees. He keeps talking though I almost tell him to shut up, It’s why I keep saying thank you, and you keep telling me not to. This is so good, and I wouldn’t be in anyone else’s bed now for the world, God’s honest truth.

Can feel tears in my eyes and I don't want to break down crying in front of him. I want to be angry and yell. And I want him to yell back so I can stay angry. I blink the tears away and give him my coldest look. "Is it now? And maybe it's also the truth that you plan on taking as much advantage of me as I'm willing to let you. Some friend that would make you!" My voice comes out low and hard and I squeeze my hands into my legs to keep them from shaking. I don't think I believe what I'm saying, it's just something to throw at him to see if he'll try to deny it. I'm angry that what we had was so good like he said and I seem to have fucked it up by wanting too much from him.