"If I found out after falling in love with them, that would suggest they'd kept themselves hidden, and so maybe I wouldn't have been in love with the real them at all..."
A ghost of a smile flickers over my face. "Oh, he's so good at hiding. He can be in the middle of a crowd, and you would never know that he was..." I breathe, passing a hand over my head, for it is starting to ache. "But in that facade, there was truth. There is, I have to believe that." Oh hell, I am babbling. I sigh and drop my head into my hands. 'M sorry Valmont, I'm just..." Just what? Tired? Selfish? Insane? A little of each, I suppose.
"Just tell me, dear, what this is about."
"I want to, I do. I want to be a good friend, so I should tell you, try to keep you safe..." Laugh a little as a few tears slip out. "but I want what I want too, and I'm not going to change, and that's why Miao is so upset with me, for I should know better and..."
Groan a little and wipe at the tears with the handkerchief. "Okay, fine, remember that you insisted." I take a deep breath and keep my gaze fixed on a point somewhere on the back wall. "This wonderful guy I met? The one who seemed a perfect match for me in every aspect? He's the one in the water tower. And I wed him anyway, knowing what I know."
There. He'll either hate me or think I am mad, I am sure.
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Date: 2010-10-29 03:15 am (UTC)A ghost of a smile flickers over my face. "Oh, he's so good at hiding. He can be in the middle of a crowd, and you would never know that he was..." I breathe, passing a hand over my head, for it is starting to ache. "But in that facade, there was truth. There is, I have to believe that." Oh hell, I am babbling. I sigh and drop my head into my hands. 'M sorry Valmont, I'm just..." Just what? Tired? Selfish? Insane? A little of each, I suppose.
"Just tell me, dear, what this is about."
"I want to, I do. I want to be a good friend, so I should tell you, try to keep you safe..." Laugh a little as a few tears slip out. "but I want what I want too, and I'm not going to change, and that's why Miao is so upset with me, for I should know better and..."
Groan a little and wipe at the tears with the handkerchief. "Okay, fine, remember that you insisted." I take a deep breath and keep my gaze fixed on a point somewhere on the back wall. "This wonderful guy I met? The one who seemed a perfect match for me in every aspect? He's the one in the water tower. And I wed him anyway, knowing what I know."
There. He'll either hate me or think I am mad, I am sure.