I listen to him try to explain, and start feeling worse for him than I do for myself. Ex-fiancee? Sounds like there’s a long, sad story there, but if he doesn’t want to tell it, I’m not going to ask. It’s not the first time someone’s told me I reminded him of a girl, so I don’t take too much offense to that. “Don’t want to ask you for something you don’t want to do,” I tell him, and mean it. “But if it would help you to get it out, I would take it and thank you afterwards, truly.” Mean that too, and hope he can tell. “I don’t have many limits, and this is not my first time. If you give me rules and talk me through it, I can take—“ I swallow hard, knowing exactly what I’m offering. “I can take a lot.”
I have to stop talking for a minute, or I’m going to start begging. Don’t want him feeling sorry for me. I want to try to sound like I’m laying this out for him to look at and think over, and that I could walk away if he says no. “If you want to give it, that is,” I can say, after a bit. “If you don’t, I’ll take you up on that coffee and stop pestering you about it. And I guess I should ask if there’s something I could do to keep from reminding you of her?”
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Date: 2010-09-21 03:05 am (UTC)I have to stop talking for a minute, or I’m going to start begging. Don’t want him feeling sorry for me. I want to try to sound like I’m laying this out for him to look at and think over, and that I could walk away if he says no. “If you want to give it, that is,” I can say, after a bit. “If you don’t, I’ll take you up on that coffee and stop pestering you about it. And I guess I should ask if there’s something I could do to keep from reminding you of her?”