"But he-" And I look up at her with the sun behind her looking so proud and sad. Seems just as strange, just as wrong now that the world wouldn't have him in it, as it did when I found out what he was. "I loved him," I say. "What was I s'posed to do, sit round waiting for him? He weren't even that bothered about me, he told me to fuck off before I could even say anything to him 'bout- 'bout breaking up. He don't fucking care." Shut my mouth then cause my voice has got loud suddenly and all unsteady and I feel all breathless.
Want to tell her she's lying and he ain't dead and ain't my fault and I never did nothing to him, I never did nothing. "He went as he wished; fighting. Burning to nothingness." Oh, fuck. Oh fuck, and I was worried monster'd see bones, and I brushed the ash off him and it's probably on me. Oh, god. "I ain't like her," I say, pushing myself to my feet and gripping Freya's reins real hard. "Why would he do that? Someone must've done it. He wouldn't do that."
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Date: 2009-05-22 08:54 pm (UTC)Want to tell her she's lying and he ain't dead and ain't my fault and I never did nothing to him, I never did nothing. "He went as he wished; fighting. Burning to nothingness." Oh, fuck. Oh fuck, and I was worried monster'd see bones, and I brushed the ash off him and it's probably on me. Oh, god. "I ain't like her," I say, pushing myself to my feet and gripping Freya's reins real hard. "Why would he do that? Someone must've done it. He wouldn't do that."