I pause a moment and look at him, then shake my head a little to clear it.

"You could say that," I tell him as if it doesn't matter even half as much as it does and consider begging him not to tell Kate, but she doesn't care so why should I? "Yeah." Don't know how to move the conversation on, get past that, so I just fight the frown that wants to come on and sit back, trying to show as much relaxation as I can.